Monday, November 23, 2009

@ 3:02 PM

Ciaossu,
The dinner was ok...not fantastic but I still had a great time chatting with my cousin. I really missed one special person though. I never thought I would finally find someone who I can laugh with:) Life's calmer these days and I don't get scolded so much. I just feel kinda light-headed these days, hope I don't fall sick before christmas:( Currently, I'm in love with Aerosmith's song: I don't wanna miss a thing. It's such a touching love song:) "coz even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do, I still miss you babe and I dun wanna miss a thing" LOL. Most of my friends are overseas or busy this holiday so I'm feeling quite alone but at least there's one person I know who'll be there for a chat anytime;) Oh ya, I got a new bed (queen size) and it's really comfy! The bed frame's really nice:D And I feel like a princess:D Life's good:) Ciao for now, maybe I'll post later:D

Lots of love,
Liz

Saturday, November 21, 2009

AFA'09 and more:D @ 11:55 PM

Ciaossu,
Today was a rather enjoyable day at the AFA'09 where I got to see many people cosplay:D
There were people cosplaying as naruto, VK, Bleach etc and the atmosphere was very exciting. Well the only bad thing was that I had to queue for about 1 hour before I finally reached the ticket purchasing counter. The queue as you can see was massive and the place was overcrowded. Sad to say, I didn't get to meet the 'ice cream stick' naruto cosplayer this year...LOL. My day started off kind of rough since I had a mild bout of food poisoning in the morning and vomited acid and felt really light-headed. Thankfully, I felt much better after a tempura udon lunch...YUMMY:D I must say I'm glad to have company when going out and I had a pretty good laugh when I hear a cosplayer mention that his fake boobs were made of ziploc bags 0_0 Didn't see any lelouch this year though. I guess I really should try cosplaying next year! It seems really fun! Ticket prices marked a sharp increase this year compared to last year but this did not deter hardcore anime fans anyway, the place was packed like sardines!!! It was hard to move around! There was not many good bargains at the fair this year so I went home empty-handed. After walking around I decided to leave the AFA and went to the esplanade where I enjoyed a free art exhibition:D Hope there are happier days to come:P I'm tired and I'm going to bed...NIGHT
Ciao
Lots of love,
Liz

Friday, November 20, 2009

@ 11:11 PM

Ciaossu,
Just returned home from Ikea. The food was good but I still feel depressed. They called me STUPID almost 20 times today and their words hurt. It really does. Why am I so stupid...Stupid enough to be born. It really sucks knowing that the closest people to you don't trust you, don't respect you, look down on you. IT SUCKS. I'm stupid enough to be unable to get into a good class, I'm stupid I'm stupid I'm stupid. Everything is my fault. I make the family unhappy. I should just follow their instructions. What do they want??
They ask me if I'm stupid and I say YES, maybe I am. Then they scold me. If I say no, they say 'just admit you are' WTH. Then what am I supposed to answer?? I feel so lonely. Wish I had a sibling to share the scoldings with. I don't want to handle this all by myself, it's really painful and their words really hurt. Why can't I be as perfect as ...some people. Why can't I just take whatever my parents say without questions. Why can't my dad not blame everyone else except himself when things go wrong. He just throws tantrums like an overgrown baby and starts throwing stuff all over the place and caning people for no reason. Why can't my mother not find fault with me and blame me and my dad for not giving her a good life when she's feeling upset. It's really chaotic at home and I just wish all this will stop soon. It never used to be this way...What must I do, what should I do? No one's there...All alone...

Love,
Liz

Got my class allocation... @ 3:24 PM

Ciaossu,
I think I'm going to cry. When I checked my class allocation today, I realised, I really am the bottom few in my level. Why can't I just study hard for the exams and leave 'Play' till later. Am I really so STUPID? I made such a fatal mistake, I don't even know if I qualify for my dream job anymore. What am I to do, I feel like I've just lost control of my future and I'm wondering what'll happen to me. I'm an idiot. Why can't I delay gratification like all my other peers. And the result, they all do better than me. I'm a NOBODY. When can I mature and get my resolve to study??? WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: yes...just shoot myself.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Floods @ 7:05 PM

Hi people,
Today was a rather interesting day though I felt quite lethargic due to the lack of sleep. I finally fell asleep at about 3am in the morning and awoke at 6am, so my sleepiness is reasonably accounted for. Anyway, I started the day by making my way to the local convenience stall to purchase cup noodles for my lunch and also some chocolate tarts for breakfast. Half asleep, I made my way to the MRT station and quickly found a seat when the train arrived and I took the chance to catch on some sleep. Before long, I had reached my station and waited for what seemed like eternity for the bus to school. The bus was quite packed but luckily, I found a seat and continued my lovely nap. CCA was a breeze and frankly, I did enjoy it, especially the home nursing section. It was filled with laughter and hands-on activities as we tackled new home nursing procedures. Before long, the heavens gave way and the 'MONSOON' started. By early afternoon, the school was partially flooded and the ground was extremely wet and slippery. After leaving earlier for my class, I was left stranded at the bus stop since there was a severe traffic jam due to the flash flood. Fortunately, I met a friend and I suggested walking to the MRT station, unknown to me that the pathway a little further down the road was fully submerged.
Thankfully, a kind soul opened the SBS bus door even though we were not at a bus stop and allowed us to enter:D Not too long later, the waters finally receded and the bus was able to avoid the massive jam along dunearn road and left for the highway. Well for me, I enjoyed a pleasant chat with the friend all the way home and that ended my interesting afternoon. It was the first time I had ever seen a canal so full of rain water:P Haiz...I'm tired so ciaos for now:P CIAO

Lots of love,
Liz

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Waiting in anticipation... @ 3:06 PM

Heya everyone,
This Friday is a really important day to me. It's when I will get to know my subject combination...OMG...Friday will determine my future occupation, so let's all put our hands together and pray for the best. In a blink of an eye, I see the year 2009 pass even though the 1st Day of school seemed like only yesterday. Next year will be a considerably busier year and I don't expect to be able to update my blog so often but I'll try.
For this blog entry, I m going to post about my Malacca trip. Malacca aka Melaka is a beautiful area in Malaysia. The people there are polite and humble and they have beautiful homes. The drive there by coach was pleasant enough and it was a real eye-opener to see oil palm plantations stretch for hundreds of kilometres down the highway. Occasionally, we would see a nice house among the many many oil palm trees. According to the tour guide, returns from the oil palm plantations took approximately 60 years so most oil palm owners pass on before they can collect the profits. Still, this trade is highly profitable as the owner's family would gain millions of ringgit. Also, another reason why this trade is sooo profitable is because every single part of the oil palm tree has its uses, that's totally COOL!
It was also my first time visiting a Kampung and I will tell you that the trip was truly enriching. Kampung chickens roam freely around the Kampung and there were alot of dragonflies . Those dragonflies crowded together like a swarm of bees but luckily they did not fly towards us. A few yards away, you could hear a rooster cockledoodledooing on a tree
In Malacca, we learnt that Kampung houses were built on stilts as they were meant to be moved elsewhere if the family did not like the area. It aroused my interest on their neighbourhood spirit since 50 or so strong men were required to move the house and they were easily available to help without getting any wages. It just tells me how friendly the people there are.
The meals in Melaka were mostly quite spicy but I enjoyed it all the same. However, I got a stomach ache on the second night, haha, luckily it didn't affect me the next day. Well, MiniMalaysia was a really out-of-this world experience since the structures of the old Malay houses really aroused my interest. 'Iron Bamboo' was used to construct some of he houses and it was really strong! The steps however, was a different story. Some of the steps were quite unstable but fortunaely there were no accidents.
On the second day, my class went to Pay Fong school, a chinese school in Melaka. The students there all knew some footdrill and attended their lessons in Chinese, quite in contrast to my school. They were quite friendly and it was especially heartwarming when my group was given access into the publishing room where we were each given a free copy of some works of the students. Also, I caught a group of guys trying to haul another guy whilst grabbing his arms and legs...how violent.
We also visited the nyona and baba museum where the intricate staircase deco intrigued me. The nyonyas, babas an peranakans really led luxurious lifestyles with everything from marble furniture imported from Italy to the floor tiles imported from Portugal...WOW!~
The nyonyas and babas are surprsingly practical when it comes to dressing and now they dress in suits and cheongsams during formal occasions.
On the 3rd day in the kampung, I tried my hand at batik painting and I'm glad my painting turned out quite well .
Though not everyone in my class was able to embark on the Malacca trip, I sincerely wish everyone in my class a great time in their new class!
Ending off:P Ciao ciao

Lots of love,
Liz

Monday, November 16, 2009

Hols have started:P @ 10:25 PM

Heya people,
Long time no see. The exams have been stressful enough but I pulled through. I didn't score very well though, I guess I have to ban the words 'slack' and 'temptation' or I'll never succeed in life. Anyway, the holidays have started and all's been going well. Just, my parents get little paranoid these days and sometimes it gets hard to breathe. Hope the situation gets better though >> that my mum doesn't find fault with people when she's feeling down, and that my dad's bad temper improves so that he won't throw tantrums anymore<<
Hmm..feeling sleepy, that's it for now. I have cca tomorrow so I guess I need my beauty sleep:P Ciao

Lots of love,
Liz

Monday, November 23, 2009

@ 3:02 PM

Ciaossu,
The dinner was ok...not fantastic but I still had a great time chatting with my cousin. I really missed one special person though. I never thought I would finally find someone who I can laugh with:) Life's calmer these days and I don't get scolded so much. I just feel kinda light-headed these days, hope I don't fall sick before christmas:( Currently, I'm in love with Aerosmith's song: I don't wanna miss a thing. It's such a touching love song:) "coz even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do, I still miss you babe and I dun wanna miss a thing" LOL. Most of my friends are overseas or busy this holiday so I'm feeling quite alone but at least there's one person I know who'll be there for a chat anytime;) Oh ya, I got a new bed (queen size) and it's really comfy! The bed frame's really nice:D And I feel like a princess:D Life's good:) Ciao for now, maybe I'll post later:D

Lots of love,
Liz

Saturday, November 21, 2009

AFA'09 and more:D @ 11:55 PM

Ciaossu,
Today was a rather enjoyable day at the AFA'09 where I got to see many people cosplay:D
There were people cosplaying as naruto, VK, Bleach etc and the atmosphere was very exciting. Well the only bad thing was that I had to queue for about 1 hour before I finally reached the ticket purchasing counter. The queue as you can see was massive and the place was overcrowded. Sad to say, I didn't get to meet the 'ice cream stick' naruto cosplayer this year...LOL. My day started off kind of rough since I had a mild bout of food poisoning in the morning and vomited acid and felt really light-headed. Thankfully, I felt much better after a tempura udon lunch...YUMMY:D I must say I'm glad to have company when going out and I had a pretty good laugh when I hear a cosplayer mention that his fake boobs were made of ziploc bags 0_0 Didn't see any lelouch this year though. I guess I really should try cosplaying next year! It seems really fun! Ticket prices marked a sharp increase this year compared to last year but this did not deter hardcore anime fans anyway, the place was packed like sardines!!! It was hard to move around! There was not many good bargains at the fair this year so I went home empty-handed. After walking around I decided to leave the AFA and went to the esplanade where I enjoyed a free art exhibition:D Hope there are happier days to come:P I'm tired and I'm going to bed...NIGHT
Ciao
Lots of love,
Liz

Friday, November 20, 2009

@ 11:11 PM

Ciaossu,
Just returned home from Ikea. The food was good but I still feel depressed. They called me STUPID almost 20 times today and their words hurt. It really does. Why am I so stupid...Stupid enough to be born. It really sucks knowing that the closest people to you don't trust you, don't respect you, look down on you. IT SUCKS. I'm stupid enough to be unable to get into a good class, I'm stupid I'm stupid I'm stupid. Everything is my fault. I make the family unhappy. I should just follow their instructions. What do they want??
They ask me if I'm stupid and I say YES, maybe I am. Then they scold me. If I say no, they say 'just admit you are' WTH. Then what am I supposed to answer?? I feel so lonely. Wish I had a sibling to share the scoldings with. I don't want to handle this all by myself, it's really painful and their words really hurt. Why can't I be as perfect as ...some people. Why can't I just take whatever my parents say without questions. Why can't my dad not blame everyone else except himself when things go wrong. He just throws tantrums like an overgrown baby and starts throwing stuff all over the place and caning people for no reason. Why can't my mother not find fault with me and blame me and my dad for not giving her a good life when she's feeling upset. It's really chaotic at home and I just wish all this will stop soon. It never used to be this way...What must I do, what should I do? No one's there...All alone...

Love,
Liz

Got my class allocation... @ 3:24 PM

Ciaossu,
I think I'm going to cry. When I checked my class allocation today, I realised, I really am the bottom few in my level. Why can't I just study hard for the exams and leave 'Play' till later. Am I really so STUPID? I made such a fatal mistake, I don't even know if I qualify for my dream job anymore. What am I to do, I feel like I've just lost control of my future and I'm wondering what'll happen to me. I'm an idiot. Why can't I delay gratification like all my other peers. And the result, they all do better than me. I'm a NOBODY. When can I mature and get my resolve to study??? WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: yes...just shoot myself.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Floods @ 7:05 PM

Hi people,
Today was a rather interesting day though I felt quite lethargic due to the lack of sleep. I finally fell asleep at about 3am in the morning and awoke at 6am, so my sleepiness is reasonably accounted for. Anyway, I started the day by making my way to the local convenience stall to purchase cup noodles for my lunch and also some chocolate tarts for breakfast. Half asleep, I made my way to the MRT station and quickly found a seat when the train arrived and I took the chance to catch on some sleep. Before long, I had reached my station and waited for what seemed like eternity for the bus to school. The bus was quite packed but luckily, I found a seat and continued my lovely nap. CCA was a breeze and frankly, I did enjoy it, especially the home nursing section. It was filled with laughter and hands-on activities as we tackled new home nursing procedures. Before long, the heavens gave way and the 'MONSOON' started. By early afternoon, the school was partially flooded and the ground was extremely wet and slippery. After leaving earlier for my class, I was left stranded at the bus stop since there was a severe traffic jam due to the flash flood. Fortunately, I met a friend and I suggested walking to the MRT station, unknown to me that the pathway a little further down the road was fully submerged.
Thankfully, a kind soul opened the SBS bus door even though we were not at a bus stop and allowed us to enter:D Not too long later, the waters finally receded and the bus was able to avoid the massive jam along dunearn road and left for the highway. Well for me, I enjoyed a pleasant chat with the friend all the way home and that ended my interesting afternoon. It was the first time I had ever seen a canal so full of rain water:P Haiz...I'm tired so ciaos for now:P CIAO

Lots of love,
Liz

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Waiting in anticipation... @ 3:06 PM

Heya everyone,
This Friday is a really important day to me. It's when I will get to know my subject combination...OMG...Friday will determine my future occupation, so let's all put our hands together and pray for the best. In a blink of an eye, I see the year 2009 pass even though the 1st Day of school seemed like only yesterday. Next year will be a considerably busier year and I don't expect to be able to update my blog so often but I'll try.
For this blog entry, I m going to post about my Malacca trip. Malacca aka Melaka is a beautiful area in Malaysia. The people there are polite and humble and they have beautiful homes. The drive there by coach was pleasant enough and it was a real eye-opener to see oil palm plantations stretch for hundreds of kilometres down the highway. Occasionally, we would see a nice house among the many many oil palm trees. According to the tour guide, returns from the oil palm plantations took approximately 60 years so most oil palm owners pass on before they can collect the profits. Still, this trade is highly profitable as the owner's family would gain millions of ringgit. Also, another reason why this trade is sooo profitable is because every single part of the oil palm tree has its uses, that's totally COOL!
It was also my first time visiting a Kampung and I will tell you that the trip was truly enriching. Kampung chickens roam freely around the Kampung and there were alot of dragonflies . Those dragonflies crowded together like a swarm of bees but luckily they did not fly towards us. A few yards away, you could hear a rooster cockledoodledooing on a tree
In Malacca, we learnt that Kampung houses were built on stilts as they were meant to be moved elsewhere if the family did not like the area. It aroused my interest on their neighbourhood spirit since 50 or so strong men were required to move the house and they were easily available to help without getting any wages. It just tells me how friendly the people there are.
The meals in Melaka were mostly quite spicy but I enjoyed it all the same. However, I got a stomach ache on the second night, haha, luckily it didn't affect me the next day. Well, MiniMalaysia was a really out-of-this world experience since the structures of the old Malay houses really aroused my interest. 'Iron Bamboo' was used to construct some of he houses and it was really strong! The steps however, was a different story. Some of the steps were quite unstable but fortunaely there were no accidents.
On the second day, my class went to Pay Fong school, a chinese school in Melaka. The students there all knew some footdrill and attended their lessons in Chinese, quite in contrast to my school. They were quite friendly and it was especially heartwarming when my group was given access into the publishing room where we were each given a free copy of some works of the students. Also, I caught a group of guys trying to haul another guy whilst grabbing his arms and legs...how violent.
We also visited the nyona and baba museum where the intricate staircase deco intrigued me. The nyonyas, babas an peranakans really led luxurious lifestyles with everything from marble furniture imported from Italy to the floor tiles imported from Portugal...WOW!~
The nyonyas and babas are surprsingly practical when it comes to dressing and now they dress in suits and cheongsams during formal occasions.
On the 3rd day in the kampung, I tried my hand at batik painting and I'm glad my painting turned out quite well .
Though not everyone in my class was able to embark on the Malacca trip, I sincerely wish everyone in my class a great time in their new class!
Ending off:P Ciao ciao

Lots of love,
Liz

Monday, November 16, 2009

Hols have started:P @ 10:25 PM

Heya people,
Long time no see. The exams have been stressful enough but I pulled through. I didn't score very well though, I guess I have to ban the words 'slack' and 'temptation' or I'll never succeed in life. Anyway, the holidays have started and all's been going well. Just, my parents get little paranoid these days and sometimes it gets hard to breathe. Hope the situation gets better though >> that my mum doesn't find fault with people when she's feeling down, and that my dad's bad temper improves so that he won't throw tantrums anymore<<
Hmm..feeling sleepy, that's it for now. I have cca tomorrow so I guess I need my beauty sleep:P Ciao

Lots of love,
Liz